try again
Coach made me do it. Or at least has indicated I need to do it. So am online collabing on a track. I feel a bit sick. I've always been kinda hesitant about music as a scene to get involved; my memory is just men playing expecting girls to listen to them, girls listening to them getting ignored, and a bunch of kind of out of place uncomfortable out of place people and an underriding feeling that this is about sex, competition and ego and just feeling greasy and ill. I'm still feeling that. I don't know how to fix it because I like the idea of... I don't know how to deal with this. Coach: tell me. You got/wanted to listen and be involved in music, okay, I can see music is a trigger word. You fancied recording some tunes with people you think are cool and like being around. Better? Me: yes. I have horrific memories of just being judged and rated and most of it being men sleazing and rating girls on attractiveness (I never scored very highly on that) and just b