first faux wakeup

He kissed me on the forehead and wrapped himself around me.  I feel happy and safe and reassured he is committed to me and happy and loves me.  I've discovered I prefer not having feelings.  I don't like them.  I like knowing I am doing a good job, I like knowing I am in the right relationship and can sustain it, I like being able to commit and be committed to so I can invest in routines and habits and have context.  I don't want to have feelings. I want it to be finished and founded.